Catalogue Finding NumberSH:7/ML/E/7/0140
Office record is held atCalderdale, West Yorkshire Archive Service
TitleDiary page
Description[Diary Transcription]
268 [269]
over it seems his feelings are very properly not quite so acute on the occasion as Miss Maclean expect
ed at least he himself makes this observation he appears to be in no way to blame old Coll must surely be
a little beside himself now and then and his sson seems wisely and calmly determined to patiently make
the best of it — Put the letter in my pocket — went to my room finished dressing, and went down to breakfast at 9 20/60
rapped at Miss MacLean’s door — She was gone — found them all assembled in the breakfast room — I felt very languid
and very little inclined to speak much — Said I had a head ache, and made the best I could of it — I had all along sat next
Miss MacLean, and took my seat as usual — Had she much nous [illegible] she might guess that such languor
of the eye bespoke the recent feeling of more than commonplace regard ’tis possible she did guess so for I think we
both felt a little embarassment though we probably succeeded in hiding it from all but ourselves they
might think me rather low I had certainly felt considerably and my blood had been feverish from the momen
t of our meeting the drive to Ootley had shewn me I was not indifferent to her her whole conduct had giv
en me hope and the leaning over her this morning had renewed with increase of strength my feelings
of empassioned tenderness she came to my room for a few minutes after breakfast I gave her
the letter saying I had nothing to say about it then and just looking up in her face said gently don’t
be angry were you so don’t ask me again she answered gently how could I be so I must be flattere
d but you frightened me do not said I be angry when I am away do not forget me she looked as if I had not
asked in vain I kissed her gently yet affectionately she left me and I scarce knew what were my tho
ughts or feelings at the moment I remember saying shall I follow you downstairs she made no
answer I reflected a moment then followed but sat aloof talking and rattling to the rest I scarce looked
at or spoke to her again till I shook hands and said goodbye as she got into the carriage I put on indiff
erence but it was not at my heart yet it was absolutely a relief to me when they were off
for we had all sat assembled in expectation of the carriage coming to the door above half an
hour yes near an hour for — the Macleans were to have been off at 11, but it was 12 before the carriage door
was closed and we saw them no more — The Cromptons sat down to their work or to dawdle over the books on the sopha table in the
morning sitting room (opposite the dining room in which we had breakfasted) — I sat down with them, and we chatted away till 2 — They did not, could
not guess how much my thoughts were wandering far from them and Esholt — I longed to be quietly at home again, yet felt a
strong irresolution to stir — I seemed waking from a dream, in all the listlessness of unquiet slumbers — ate a couple
of thin slices of cold beef at luncheon — I had not taken anything with relish since entering the house — everything was
good, but my own appetite — I felt a feverish faintness, yet it was not for food — at 3 went upstairs to
pack etc. — Just peeped into my friend’s room, as I passed — the houesmaid had completed her ravages, and no trace of
recent occupation remained — I hastened to my own room confounding thought already too confused —
Miss Crompton and Mary had gone to their school — I had just done packing when Miss Henrietta Crompton came to me, and she and I set off
(at 4 10/60) to take a little stroll in the wood — chatted rationally enough — about her brother’s intended match, etc. said little of
the Macleans — by no means a regular talking over — But somehow I did not exactly like the style of the few remarks
made viz Breadalbane would marry Scotch women were not so particular about these things as the English I merely
said I knew not enough of Breadalbane to say how far this might apply to her but it was not in the least app
licable to Miss Maclean whose particularity I took an opportunity of praising sufficiently not too much just
laughed and said it was a bad hit to joke us about my putting her in my pocket etc. and our wish to be left to ourselves

[margin text:] (vide page 270.)
Speaking of his teeth, Mr. Crompton said, Mr. Horner, the dentist of York, told him nothing was so good
to rinse the mouth with as a solution of salt prunelle — or it was good to let a little gradually dissolve in the mouth.
(vide page 271.)

269 [270]
for no one was less a subject for anything foolish or nonsensical than Miss Maclean Henrietta said she liked her
as well as Breadalbane though she had known so much less of her but left her more to me because she knew I pre
ferred her society to Breadalbane’s I expressed my thanks merely observing I fancied Breadalbane
and she had been much more particular friends ah said Henrietta she is not more my friend than that of the rest
we all like her alike — Henrietta said Mrs Lloyd had five hundred pounds for her fortune I observed that Sco
tch entails were very strict and younger children of very old families were often slenderly provided
for in fact I should not have thought of her having anything beyond [illegible] paraphernalia it seemed
as if my companion was wondering whether Miss Maclean and Breadalbane would be no better off I said it was a
different thing if girls did not marry then their families fathers and oldest sons always took ample
care of them and I believed our two friends would be very well provided for here the conversation tur
ned I thinking I would not give Breadalbane or the Cromptons a straw for all the friendship collectively they
feel towards each other — Miss Henrietta Crompton and I sauntered back to the school, the rest of the Cromptons joined us
stood a moment to hear the school-prayer read, and the girls dismissed (apparently a considerable no. [number] of them, fifty or more)
and all sauntered home — finding it later than we supposeed, I took leave rather in a hurry (the gig at the door)
and was off at 5 20/60 — an hour in driving from Esholt to Bradford turnpike, and in 1 1/2 hour more got out at Shibden —
Did not push Caradoc at all — He stumbled a few times, and will end (I think) in being a stumbler before many years
hence — but I scarcely noticed him or thought of anything else than the occurances of the last 2 days — my mind was intently
occupied How strange said I to myself as the remembrance of π- [Mariana] darted across me I was confused in thought
and feeling — It was 8 (five minutes past eight) by our clock when I arrived at home — I felt thoroughly exhausted — a nameless lassitude
overpowered me — my father and Marian were here — I complained of being tired, and excused myself from saying much — they soon went home — the sound
of dinner sickened me — had coffee and a little biscuit and butter — the coffee revived me — and I sat up, wanting resolution
to move, talking now and then to my uncle and aunt, till after 10 — Very fine day — very warm — Barometer 5 1/3 degrees above changeable
Fahrenheit 61° at 10 10/60 p.m. at which hour came up to bed — nearly 3/4 hour siding my things and dawdling over 1 thing or other —

[margin text:] (vide page 271.
and page 272.)
Miss McLean’s only brother Hugh (the younger of Coll) married the sister of Mrs. Hamilton Dundas
the insane lady is Major Hamilton’s aunt — vide bottom of page 253.

Saturday 29
awoke at 6, but seemed not much refreshed — fell asleep again till a few minutes before 9, then roused myself from dull
heavy slumber, feeling listless, languid, feverish, and out of sorts — Did not see Hotspur — left his oatmeal and
water in his manger — stood talking to Jackman — came in at 9 35/60 — went down to breakfast at 10 1/2 — ate without
appetite, and probably looked unwell — I had smiled in dressing to find grown thin in 2 days — Miss Maclean still
the first thing and last in my thoughts Staid down stairs talking to my uncle and aunt — the swelling in my uncle’s
legs much the same — not much better — my aunt rheumatic as ever — Came upstairs at 11 50/60 — wrote 3 ppages the ends
and under the seal, and nearly all the 1st page crossed to M- [Mariana] explaining how my unexpected visit to Esholt had prevented my writing yesterday as usual — made the following extract from page 2 — ‘I am quite sure you could not
‘help liking my friend, she is so thoroughly ladylike and amiable — I drove her to Otley, by way of having a little tête à
‘tête, on Thursday *** ........ Isabella would think her the most formal person in the world, and then abuse elegance as too cold-hearted
‘to suit her — For my own part, I respect the arm’s length distance at which she keeps everything in the best remotest degree bordering on
‘the flippant and nonsensical; and the more I knew of her, the more I think I should esteem her — the propriety of her manners,— the
‘propriety of her conduct would strike you forcibly — I have 1/2 promised to go and see her some time or other — You would not
‘say in this case, as you do in another, ‘Do you intend to meet Miss ——— I hope, if you do, your visit will
‘not be a long one’ ...... Alluding to meeting Miss Vallance at Langton — M- [Mariana] had expressed a hope of their having a good artist
for a while in Cheshire by and by, and that I should go to N.C. [Newcastle] and sit again for my picture for her — after telling her my going to N.C. [Newcastle] this year was utterly
DateMay 1824
Extent1 page


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