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225
1820
December
this morning I said I knew that if both she and I were quite at liberty to choose and take whom
we liked she would prefer Mr. Schalch said she I dont know I really think I could easily put
him by altogether if I liked she certainly likes me eexceedingly I wish it may not
prove too much but perhaps she is not yet fully aware how much herself –
the ground white on the hills this morning and some flying sleety showers in the course of the morning –
cold and thick – hail or rain pelting against the skylight between 12 and 1 – wrote this of today
just before getting into bed – Vs [Miss Vallance] cousin came today I think in the morning –
Wednesday 27
9 3/4
2 25/60
In the morning in Miss V-’s [Vallance] room. – Did nothing but write 3 ppages to M- [Mariana] Music in the evening and waltzing and
quadrilles Came upstairs at 11 – a little while with Mrs. Milne half hour with V [Miss Vallance] and then curled in Anne’s
room and staid till after two talking of Harriet etc. it came out from Anne that her
conduct had gone beyond common flirting indeed as I said I had reason for suspecting
a good deal she certainly little thinks of π [Mariana] having so told me all I said π [Mariana] did not marry
for love Anne thought she liked him at any rate she should not write so dictatorially as
she did about peter acklam considering that she herself had done more with L [Charles Lawton] formerly
witness the garnetts and watch all which Anne had never named to her which she thought
great forbearance π [Mariana] used to tell me she would not have him without my consent
yet certainly her manner of managing the matter contradicted her professions
Anne thinks she has gulled me sometimes perhaps she has but surely she loves
me now and I must forget the past – Cold, winterish day, but fair – the wind got
higher towards evening and was very boisterous in the night –
Thursday 28..
10 1/4
1
L
Crossed the 3 ppages and wrote the ends of my to M- [Mariana] (Lawton) and sent it this morning by IN. [Isabella Norcliffe] and A. B- [Anne Belcombe]
From 3 40/60 to 4 1/4, set off, and walked round the stand on the wold – In the evening read, in the last
no. [number] of the Quarterly Review a critique on Dr. Burrowes’ work on insanity, very
encouraging to those who dread this malady, and counteracting what he calls some common errors
on this subject – Fine day, hard frost and cold – the wind rose a little towards night –
Came upstairs at 10 50/60 – took no notice of Mrs M [Milne] this evening and only went into her room
for a few minutes – with A. B- [Anne Belcombe] about 3/4 hour and with Miss V- [Vallance] 20 minutes – began this morning
just as I got out of bed –
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December Friday 29
9 1/2
1 1/2
LL
Letter from Miss M- [Marsh] (Micklegate York), and Letter from Marian Market Weighton enclosing two five pound malton notes Immediately
after breakfast wrote 2 1/2 ppages in answer and sent it off to Malton – From 1 to 3, out with Mrs. Milne and A. B- [Anne Belcombe]
took a turn in the East balk and then went to Birdsall gate – Dawdled away the afternoon and evening
dancing quadrilles and learning to waltz – Came upstairs at 11 – Miss V- [Vallance] rather unwell
with spasms – only 20 minutes with her and the rest of the time with the others. Half hour alone with
Harriet I am afraid to feed her vanity or could suit her taste for flattery
very easily – wrote the above of today just before getting into bed – Fine day – hard frost –
Miss M- [Marsh] writing of Helen Waterton that was “Mrs. Robert Carr, Wakefield
will be her proper direction; I sincerely wish her happy tho’ no one connected
with her can be pleased with the match”–
Saturday 30
10
2
L
Letter from my aunt (Shibden) all well – she sent me a five pound bank of England
which I was lucky enough to get for single postage – From 1 40/60 to 3 35/60 out walking
Miss V- [Vallance] and I went to Birdsall, and peeped into at the church porch – as we returned Mrs. M- [Milne]
and A. B- [Anne Belcombe] met us a good way beyond Parker’s farm, and joined us – spoilt out conversation
but perhaps it was as well for we had got from indifferent subject to her thinking
me changed since Tibs going to York I made as well of the thing as I could protesting
that I had only been so far brought to my senses as to think more reasonably of our being
mutually beyond each others reach but I still loved her as ever and we are to meet t
wo years hence as we are now if I continue to wish it she certainly likes me
and I begin to think would not be sorry to give up Mr Schalch to have me certain –
In the evening read in the last no. [number] of the Quarterly Review the critique about 30 ppages very interesting on Belzoni’s work –
In the eevening very near made Mrs Milne cross about her not joining head and tails in writing music went into her room at night staid
half hour laughed and joked about kissed and were friends only about quarter with Miss V [Vallance]
and Anne came and staid in our room till near two scolding me about flattering Harriet –
Came upstairs at 11 – Fine frosty day –
Sunday 31
10 1/4
2 1/4
All the morning in Vs [Miss Vallance] room she not feeling quite well not much alone with her – Mrs. N- [Norcliffe] and
A. B- [Anne Belcombe] and I went to afternoon church. Mr. Simpson preached 24 minutes from some verse of chapter 14 Saint. Luke.
Immediately after service A. B- [Anne Belcombe] and I walked almost to Birdsall gate and got back in about 2 hours at
4 1/2 – Almost all the evening upstairs with Miss V- [Vallance] who had a violent attack of spasms –
half with Mrs M [Milne] a little with Anne and quarter with V [Miss Vallance] Anne then staid in our room till after two –
Very fine winter’s day – hard frost –
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