Catalogue Finding NumberSH:7/ML/E/10/0009
Office record is held atCalderdale, West Yorkshire Archive Service
TitleDiary page
Description[Diary Transcription]

October Tuesday 31
6 3/4
11 3/4
At my desk at 7 3/4 — wrote 2 1/2 ppages to Mrs. Lynn, to tell her I had heard from Mr. Duffin on Sunday
and that the match took place at Winterslow on the 20th ultimo *** — ‘It was not till Sunday that I had Mr. Duffin’s
‘letter, or had received any certain intelligence of his having linked himself in golden chains again — I trust, it is much to
‘the happiness of both parties — ’Tis a little late in the day; but, surely never too late to make ourselves as comfortable as we
‘can — and, if this be not a match of comfort, where shall we look for one? Sober people, like you and me,
‘who have crossed the equinoctial line of life, can imagine nothing more promising than long acquaintance, and
‘long and tried esteem — Do give my kind remembrances to Miss Lynn, and tell her, it is natural that she should view
‘these things through a medium rather different, — rather lighter, rather brighter — But she is in her teens; and there is
‘magic in them, that must pass away before we can know life what it is, and as it is — I think you are
‘not personally much acquainted with Mr. Duffin — I owe him much, and know him well, and think our friend, the present
‘Mrs. Duffin, is lucky — I wish them much happiness, believe them to deserve it, and count their chance a better one,
‘than that of many younger people who have not lived long enough to know the risk they run of either good, or evil —
‘they were married at, and left Winterslow on the 20th of last month and travelled leisurely home by Oxford where they spent
‘3 days’ ….. the rest bavardage amical [friendly chatter], but proper on this first occasion of writing to a person in whose favour I am
much prejudiced — breakfast at 10 1/4 — before and afterwards read the whole of Galignani’s Messenger — then wrote the above of today —
Sent my letter ‘à Madame Madame Lynn, Place Gregoire, Tours’, at 11 50/60 — then wrote 1 page (small and close) to Mrs. Norcliffe
which took me till 12 50/60 — then dressed — Went out at 1 1/2 — took George, and went (along the quai past the Morgue
and over the little bridge of the Hotel Dieu) to the Mail, fruit market — bought a basket of very nice grapes for 0/75 — ditto of pears (29) at
1/50, and ditto ditto (20) at 1/. and ditto of fine large apples (containing 19- such as I pay the fruiterer 3 sols a piece for) for 1/. —
In returning crossed back again to the north south side of the water along the pont St. Michel — stood sometime looking at the books
arranged on the west battlement, and bought for 0/75, a little 18mo. [octodecimo] Edition of Tacitus ‘ex. I. Lipsii accuratissima editio,
Parisiis apud viduam Claudii Thiboust et Petrum Esclassau …. 1676.’ then direct to Quai Voltaire
No. [Number] 15. Mr. St. Aubin (whom we used to have at the de Boyves’) just coming away — the 2nd visit he had paid Mrs. Barlow
Got there at 3 40/60 — sat with Mrs. Barlow and Jane — All as usual no allusion to anything particular till five and a half when
I got my hat to come away and said there was an observation that I had promised not to name but that was perpe
tually at my tongue’s end at last Mrs Barlow said was it her not having returned my call on this I said it was her
not having called on my aunt during my absence or afterwards yes she had called to inquire after her every
day had seen the servant twice and asked if she could be of any use had been in the premier opposite to us and seen my au
nt from thence that she was going on well but looking pale she did not come not knowing whether it might be an
intrusion I ought to have told her to come for she had asked me repeatedly if she could do anything for
my aunt and I had said no I said I thought of nothing but such botherations of housekeeping as were all done
never dreampt of telling her to come besides my aunt had told her how glad she should be to see her
yes but she thought I ought to have said so too besides she hated the house why said I she burst into tears
(Jane had left us) she told me how unkind unfeeling and indifferent I had been to her she never thought
I could have met her as I did not one word of kindness but when in the midst of all her suffering for me
and she was very ill she had said a word impatiently I had no patience but told her how I was changed
and that my love was all gone back to another I declared that be my faults what they might I was not unfeeling

[margin text:] Fahrenheit 60° at 8 am.
60 1/2° at 12 at noon
60° — 6 1/4 p.m.
59 1/2° — 10 1/2 —

nor seem what I might was it possible for me to be really cold or indifferent to far from it I had been only
to do what was best not what was natural if I had erred it was an error of judgement not of heart and
if it had deceived her she knew less of the world and human nature than I supposed I had at all rates paid her
the highest compliment I could pay to any woman I had always told her I respected her and it was tr
ue after all that had passed between it was impossible I should treat her as I did I but from a feeling of the
most profound respect she said she wished to think well of me and was now better satisfied she had been very
ill it was a complaint of the womb that brought on all these tremblings and nervousness it was ssometimes
too strong for her mind and more than she could bear she had said I was changeable I bade her not think it po
ssible I could be so much so as she had fancied it was my misfortune that (and I said this the tears trickling
down my face my voice evidently faltering and I was on one knee before her) that I could not be change
able enough ~ I asked if I might give her a kiss she rather held out her hand which I kissed fervently ~
I staid till it had struck six little firelight and no candle we could not see much but she told me
she liked me to be open with her and she was happier she could have borne anything had I done it kindly
I believe she will take my attentions and that making love on any terms will please her best but I
shall see how we go on this complaint in her womb will make her like the excitement of my paying court and if
I can get over it I believe she will be my mistress more is out of the question poor π [Mariana] she was right
when she used to dread leaving me but when she returns to me it will be different I am fond of and really
respect her and she will keep me right but what will be the end of this connection with Mrs Barlow she said this
evening she was neither deep nor designing I know not how this may be I see she will hamper and entangle me
but if π [Mariana] never knows it it will be well and she cannot harm me much I should have been better out of her way
yet it cannot be helped now and I must make the best I can of it she excited me this evening I fear I
cannot resist her but I will never said I to myself as I came home I will never go absolutely
near her I will always ssay I am not quite well I expect her soon to call on my aunt then if she com
es into my room I know not how we shall manage ~ Got home at 6 20/60 in 1/4 hour — Dinner at 6 35/60 — the porter’s
wife came up for a little while but her husband being out, and the Actons having a large party, she feared being
wanted, and I sent her down again — then wrote the last 47 lines of today which took me till 10 — Mrs. Barlow told me
Madame Galvani has some chance of recovering 60,000 livres de rente per annum — Fine day; though about 3 the clouds
looked dark and threatened rain, yet it held off — went to my room at 10 1/4 Cut my toenails ~ o. ~

November Wednesday 1
6 3/4
11 20/60
in my salon at 7 1/2 — from 7 3/4 to 10 5/60 making out the summary of the month of August 1824. This is a tiresome
business and I am out of the habit of it at present — it is the making little mistakes here and there which is such a tiresome concern is
almost unavoidable, that makes me so long about it — but it is a capital exercise in addition, and a still better [illegible] exercise of patience, and I am determined to do the thing
right — breakfast at 10 10/60 — read the whole of Galignani’s paper (messenger) — which took me till 11 1/4 — It is observed that tomorrow
being All Souls day, when people go to visit the graves of their different relatives, the cemetery of Père Lachaise will be rendered
particularly interesting — from 11 20/60 to 1 10/60 readding up the 1st eight months of 1824, etc. and reading here and there (chiefly relative to the
use of the conjunction que) La grammaire des grammaires — Then dressed — It was very fine this morning till 12 — between then and 1 dull, then about
1 very gentle rain — the streets wet — I ought to have gone out early — must have exercise — my feet being coldish, thought of dancing about a little —
tried it — could bear it no longer than 2 minutes — then dressed — then tried again, still no longer than 2 minutes though dancing before the pendule, and gently —
yet I am now all in a glow — I find this sort of exercise for a couple of minutes every now and then will probably do better than any I
DateOct-Nov 1826
Extent1 page


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