Catalogue Finding NumberSH:7/ML/E/10/0048
Office record is held atCalderdale, West Yorkshire Archive Service
TitleDiary page
Description[Diary Transcription]

of hot weak milk and water — sat over the fire till 8 1/2 — then wrote the last 3 1/2 lines of today, and write out the washing bills, and the index
from the 3rd instant to the 13th — go to my room at 9 55/60 — blew up a little bit of fire in my room — the coldest night we have had —
feeling rather biliously inclined boiled water and took 4 tumbler glasses as hot as I could in the hope of producing active sickness — did not
answer — this kept me up so late —

Monday 22
7 1/2
11 40/60
my bowels tolerable this morning — A few little buttons then some shortish thin rolls as if I had not taken nourishment
or nature had not had time to form them thicker ~ an easy motion ~ the washer woman came at 8 1/4 (came to my room
at that hour) settled with her — finished dressing — the coldest morning we have had — made a large fire — sat down at
my desk at 9 1/4 — at 9 35/60 read over my letter to Miss MacLean dated Friday 12, Saturday 13, and Sunday afternoon 21 January — page 1. ‘Miseries —
‘every day provocations’ — seem to thicken round you; and I should lose the hope of better days to come in this world, were I less convinced
‘that all our human grievances may be brought within the sphere of our own control — Let us but once fairly gather
‘them together, arrange, and anailirze them, and, if we cannot neutralize them, we have a reasonable chance of detecting,
‘and of qualifying, in some degree or other, their most worst principles of bitterness ....... you have held back the curtain
‘till I have caught a glimpse of evils spiritual and temporal At the head of the first seems to be your father’s sst
ate of mind at the head of the second seem to be Albane and Mrs. Moone I then quote her sentence respecting
her father’s sstate of mind and the Quaker’s greatest interest argue that to pronounce thus and to distress herself
about it, is to judge, — to disag disregard that positive ordinance ‘judge not lest ye be judged’ and to disquiet herself
in vain — ‘why should the Quaker be so ‘painfully anxious anxious’? why, when he cannot give an account of a single
‘blade of grass how it grows, should he attempt to give an account, — to make remark which may be distressing, — even to himself,
‘much more to you, on the state of your father’s mind? It is not any human power which shall judge a man by ‘every idle
‘word that proceedeth out of his mouth’ — and, if it were, a tribunal of equity, — nay! our commonest court of justice
‘would see to the state of mental health, before it passed judgment upon the state of mental responsibility — Forgive me Sibbella,
‘if I doubt the good of the Quaker’s ‘series of letters on religious subjects ....... His ‘greatest interest’ is in the state
‘of mind of your father; — his next greatest in his pilgrim’s progress on her Spiritual Journey! Sibbella! this is very
‘fine, very evangelical, very apostolic, very worthy of the ‘mild, meek man’ who seeks, and finds the sheep
‘on board a steamer! any man or woman maybe a Quaker minister ....... Do you want some
‘spiritual guide? Why not prefer some pastor of your own church? If none be near, the post is alike to all,
‘and Heaven has not taught letters to your Quaker alone — It may be that he ‘argues for perfect resignation;’ but
‘your so perfect knowledge of his painful anxiety, is not the most likely means of making your mind submissive to his
‘arguments — I seek not to do him injustice — If he loves you, I respect his taste; if he wishes to convert you to
‘his own religious persuasion, I forgive his bigotry; if he seeks to set your mind at ease by making painful remarks
‘on the state of your father’s, I pity him for his utter ignorance how to attain what he desires — what that only error
‘of yours, ‘that only one he knows’, I do not attempt to guess — Perhaps the fewer who know our errors, and the better;
(page 2) ‘but were I at this moment constrained to choose a depository for mine, it would not be the breast
‘of any of the Saint like ministers of any religion whatever — the enlightened of our day are jealous of them (Saturday morning
‘13 January’) and say much and well, against the vain attempt to make us all saints on earth’ — our thoughts not as
the thoughts of him who shall be our judge — should we have condemned Dives the pharisee, and spared the
women taken in adultery — should we have despaired for Dives and hoped for Mary Magdalene, or so run
out to meet the prodigal and so paid the labourers of the 11th hour? ..... ‘Ponder these things in your heart......
‘and presume not to make yourself unhappy, because those you love do not seek after heaven by the same road that you do — tell me,
Sibbella, are you numbered with what are called the evangelicals of our day? I hope not — It is not necessary to us, as to
the prophet Daniel, to throw open our windows, and pray at noonday — Let us rather retire into our closet, and
‘commune with our own hearts, and be still’ — I do not and never did like the all I knew of your correspondence with the Quaker

[margin text:] very hard frost
Fahrenheit 25° at 8 1/2 a.m.
26° — 3 1/2 p.m.
23° — 10 10/60 —

‘of all sorts of romance, perhaps religious is the worst — I do not wonder that this religious friendship, and correspondence, are quizzed
by those around you; and it will surprise me, if you reap much real benefit either from the one, or the other’ — then to
the subject of temporal evils - - - ‘It seems Mrs. Moone is a sort of lunar caustic in the house, burning up all
‘the happiness she comes near — If you cannot kick the cautery out, keep as far from as you can — take care of yourself,
‘at all rates; and, if you cannot take care of others, having done your best, be satisfied ......... — But what
‘do you mean by ‘Little pretty tracts, stories for them’ (the children) ‘to read on Sunday evenings’? Surely you do
‘not mean religious tracts! As I have always given Albane credit for enough worldly sense, — for tact enough to
‘discover her interest, and act accordingly, — in short, as I have always considered her a very worthy sensible person, her head
‘being cooler than her heart being warm, — I cannot understand why she always ‘takes a decided part against’ you, — why
‘she ‘always joins Mrs. Moone’, unless upon calcaulation, she likes Mrs. Moone’s plans better than yours .... your opinions
‘must be at issue — How? Why? ..... ‘this is a vile vile world — when we endeavor in the most affectionate way to
‘lead those we love most to act in the way’ etc. etc. ‘This paragraph is comprehensive, — full of meaning; and I have
‘mused upon it much — Any measure of ostensibly attempting to lead those who will not be led, is irritating, and
‘should therefore be given up not only as useless, but injurious — we are not always correct in believing, that the happiness of others
‘would be better ensured by their following our way than their own — we are free agents, — have different opinions, — different feelings, —
‘Chacun a son gout [Chacun à son goût, Everyone has his taste];’ — and we generally hold in abomination all unwelcome interference with our mental
‘establishments — Depend upon it, there is some mistake, — some want of address in our system, when intended services
‘are returned by ‘dislike rudeness, and misinterpretation ...... You have somehow or other got your wheel into the
‘mud — lay your shoulder to it, and get it out again ..... I cannot help fancying your religious tenets stricter than
‘those of the rest of your family, that these are the source of some disquiet, and that the Quaker would, in this instance, pervert
‘the use of that text ‘if men persecute you for my sake, blessed are ye’ — Perhaps I am wrong — tell me —
Then think it would be almost well if she was turned for they never agree together can she not live with her
uncle or Mrs Hunter — page and the ends dated yesterday Contain not much very particular speaking of her comparing me
to Samuel Johnson ‘I know whom you mean — you flatter me too much and too little’ — I do not resemble Dr. Johnson in his
‘best, and surely not in his bearishness and ill temper — my aunt is not just now full of the thought of closing her pilgrimage
‘in this world — the climate has done wonders for her — she is even better than when I wrote last, and is in excellent spirits
‘about herself — She hemmed 1/2 a dinner napkin on Friday very neatly .... she never thinks of considering you a stranger —
glad Miss MacLean will not mention what I said of MacDonald ‘Time will clear the matter — at present, I cannot possibly
‘make out whether she is subject to the confusion of sense, or the absolute want of it — at any rate, she is
‘always good tempered and obliging — yet struck to say, we none of us like her — ..... I believe she is afraid of me — I never
‘let her come near me when I can help it; and, as she is not in my provinence, I have no occasion to observe or interfere
with her in any way’ — ‘Mrs. Lawton was certainly a great loss to us — but Mrs. Barlow is most kind and attentive;
and we get on very well’ — ‘I will take the 1st opportunity of seeing you — at least, you shall have my profile one
‘of these days’ — Living as economically as I can — wish to save to pay off my debts — still in brick and mortar
at home — could not furnish here for less than £500 or £600 — mention our new apartment as having no objection
but that of being a story higher than we intended — mention the Senès, and that they and their furnishing etc. made me take
the apartment from year to year and forget 82 steps — have it for 14 months certain — ‘much may occur during this period; but the last
fear that presents itself to me, is that of anything happening to my aunt — to judge from present appearances, she may live many years’ —
till 11 40/60 writing the above of today — then breakfast and read part of the paper — sent my aunt my letter to Mrs. William Priestley to read after having read it over
myself — a long and amusing letter of 3 ppages and the ends — mention hoping to get to our new apartment the end of this week — it has only 2 objections
neither of which affect my aunt at all — say nothing of the back staircase, but simply that is a story higher than we intended — do not
name our future rent, but name the no. [number] of rooms we have here, and state our present rent at about £260 a year — give a list of prices of
everything that came into my head, almost every article of our consumption — dearness of carpeting 16 francs an ell the breadth of scotch
carpeting — 22 the breadth of Wilton or Brussels, and all carpets here lined this and making swell the bill, ‘and make the covering of a floor no trifling
DateJan 1827
Extent1 page


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