Catalogue Finding NumberSH:7/ML/E/10/0038
Office record is held atCalderdale, West Yorkshire Archive Service
TitleDiary page
Description[Diary Transcription]

‘my child’ too childish — Mrs. Barlow too dull’ — mentioned our dinner and how we had to wait — had had another
talkation with MacDonald on Monday — had mentioned her taking the ale at Shibden — her prevarication — my loss of
confidence — probable determination to talk to her no more — could scarce endure her — had told Miss MacLean of her being occasionally
oddly confused whether from something on her mind or in her blood I could not tell — but we should go on as we did and begged
her not to name it — tell M- [Mariana] what Madame Huchez’s young partner says — advise her to have 2 gowns — 1 brodée, 1 plain —
In conclusion add ‘I may and do lament that Fortune has denied me that which you most value on earth’ — (top of
page 3 of M-’s [Mariana] letter, — ‘Do have the goodness to banish immediately from your mind so impudent an untruth — Mary! look
‘within and around you — then say who has a heart whose best affections are better returned than your own — who has
more ample means of being happy — store your mind with firmness and with fortitude — elevate it by reflection and
‘the love of right, and self-confidence will soon follow, and, with it, that high, interior dignity which, after all,
‘forever charms us most, and wins, even from the world, its warmest praises and its best esteem — Look
‘Mary! Look within and around you — then say who has a heart whose best affections are better returned than your
‘own — who has ampler means of being happy? — Save in health, you are all that satisfies that one who is
‘now and for ever very especially and entirely yours —’ Immediately after sending off my letter i.e. from 11 35/60 to 1 25/60 wrote
all but the first 4 1/2 lines of yesterday and so far of today — from 1 1/2 to 2 10/60 making alterations in my general daybook
on account of Mrs. Barlow’s having some days since paid me the 3/60 for a fiacre entered Friday the 8th instant — I have had
plenty of scratching out and altering in all my account books of this year — surely I shall have less of this work in
future — Mrs. Barlow call at 1 50/60 shewn in to my aunt — went out at 2 35/60 — 10 minutes talking to my aunt and Mrs. Barlow
then went out with the latter — we walked to the barrière de l’Etoile — took a turn round the garden and grounds of Monsieur Etienne then a
turn backwards and forwards in the avenue de Neuilly, then to Quai Voltaire No. [Number] 15 — Mrs. Barlow walked back with me as far as
the Bains Vigier on our side then I returned with her, went upstairs with her to her room for 1/2 hour, and got home in 1/4 hour at 6 10/60 —
We had in returning got on the subject of my giving her back her letters I plainly said I would not without
she gave me mine she said I had promised I suspected her was unkind ungenerous etc. etc. she railed agai
nst π [Mariana] seeing her letters I told her a suspicious person was to be suspected I had thought ever since
last night of her telling me about denying in three years that I had ever loved her she cried raved
whined coaxed would turn back with me from her own gate she cried and roared all the way and we talked so
earnestly the people must observe us when I went upstairs with her the scene continued I said
I had suffered enough from letters mentioned the case of Eliza Raine and said we could not answer
for ourselves then she wheedled and at last to get away more quietly I let her fancy she had perhaps
persuaded me to let her keep her letters for me why so keep to have both mine and her own I will be
determined she shall either return me mine or I will not return hers tis true I think it not [illegible] prudent to
trust her she may do as she likes I will be firm that it was of as much consequence to me as to her
that π [Mariana] above all people should not see either her letters or mine it would make a pretty blow up
if she did I shall make this the means of shewing Mrs Barlow she is merely as my mistress and that I am firm
ly bound to π [Mariana] what can the woman mean by all this raving she says she would not care what the
world thought of but for Janes ssake — In saying I should not like the chance of her aunts ssee
ing my letters my prejudice was against her she was too calculating she said she was
now all my friend all for me for Mrs Barlows taking me and not Mr Bell they are a queer set I think but I w
ill have my letters or keep Mrs Barlows in spite of all her tears and raving and coaxing —
Hurried home to dinner — Dinner at 6 20/60 — went into the drawing room a little before 8 — fell asleep, and slept
till 10 — then came to my room — By the way, Mrs. Barlow asked me this morning to go to the Théatre Français
with her and Jane and Monsieur and Madame Ponciègle which I declined — from 10 to 10 1/2 wrote the last 24 1/2 lines —
very fine day —

[margin text:] Fine frostyish morning Fahrenheit 40° at 9 5/60 a.m.
42° —— 11 ——
43 1/2° —— 1 3/4 p.m.
46° —— 2 1/4 —— (darkish).
45° —— 10 1/2 ——

December Saturday 30
11 1/4
In my room at 8 5/60 — finished dressing — out at 8 50/60 —through the gardens to the 1st Quincailler in the rue du
Bac — chose both two tea-kettles (at 12 and 13/.), to be brought this evening of which I would take one — read this morning’s Journal
des Débats — sauntered up and down the main walk between the 2 fountains — came in at 11 — then breakfast — read Galignani
of this morning, all which took me till 12 1/2 — From 12 3/4 to 4 1/2 wrote 3 ppages and the ends to Steph. — pretty close —
copying the account M- [Mariana] gives of her health in her last, giving an account (pretty good) of my aunt, and filling up my letter with observations
on this and that — shall have no war — send my love to the Duffins — thanks to Mr. Duffin for his letter ‘and say I shall
‘write one of these days .... my love to Harriet — If I do not write to her she must excuse me; for I rarely write
‘when I can at all well avoid it — From you, I would, in this case, rather have 1/2 a dozen lines quickly, than
‘twice as many of your best ppages (and your good are really good) in the course of 3 or 4 weeks — I am uneasy
‘about M- [Mariana]; for she is less far from the mind than from the person of yours, my dear Steph., very faithfully Anne Lister’ —
from 4 50/60 to 6 wrote 1 1/2 ppages to Mrs. Lynn — Dinner at 6 10/60 — came into the drawing room at 8 — slept the greater part of the evening —
Fine day — soft and mild — went to my room at 10 — they sent the kettles this evening — chose that at 13/. weighing 2 lbs. 10 oz.  [therefore] the copper at 2/50 a lb., one pays enough for the façon —

[margin text:] mild, soft morning
Fahrenheit 46° at 8 5/60 a.m.
49° —— 12 1/2 p.m.
47 1/2° —— 8 ——
47° —— 10 ——

Sunday 31
7 10/60
11 3/4
In my room at 8 10/60 — my bowels quite right now, and have been ever since I had the sense to loosen my stays — the fact
is I am fatter than I was I begin to perceive — my life is too easy — I must have more exercise, and less bed — I am
always afraid of getting fat — I know it is so difficult to do so without laying the foundation for ‘divers diseases
and death’ — It is by superabundance of nourishment that we compel ourselves to become fat — nature makes use of it by
converting it into fat, till we clog her up that she can do so no longer, and then it must gradually derange
the machine in one way or other, till at last the parts can play no longer, and we die of over feeding —
from 8 20/60 to 8 3/4 wrote the latter 1/2 page 2 my letter to Mrs. Lynn, and about 1/3 page 3, and thus finished my letter — a kind letter
beginning ‘my dear Mrs. Lynn (dated last night ‘Saturday evening 30 December’) I was going to begin with, It seems odd that I
‘should trouble you by writing..... but my eye glances on your concluding sentence, ‘I shall always have pleasure
‘to hear from you’; and it is enough — It is not my rejoice intention to weary you, or to intrude upon your thoughts
‘in any way that can be irksome — we are very sincerely anxious for your daughter’s recovery, — very sincerely anxious to have
‘good accounts of you both, — and, beyond this, have only to add, that, be the will of providence what it may, we trust you
‘will neither be found unprepared, nor unresigned, and that you will not fail to remember that, if there be any
‘comfort, — any consolation which you can possibly derive from us, it will be gladly offered with all the cordiality
‘of real interest in your welfare’ — rejoice that she has staid where she is — mention the loss of our table silver
spoons — the peace of Europe seems to rest on a better foundation than ever ‘there may be a few complaints
‘of Mr. Canning’s ‘worse than haughty speech’; but England and Mr. Canning, too, are hailed by the vast majority
‘as the sheet anchor of all that is great and liberal; and Charles the 10th does not, in his heart, respect, or trust
‘us less, because we wrap the mantle of our importance round us — my aunt still continues ‘well of herself’,
‘but suffers more in her limbs, than she did 10 days ago — of course, we attribute this to the weather — we have
‘had a great deal of rain, though it has chiefly fallen in the night — we have as yet no appearance of winter, but the
‘lealfess [leafless] trees — a few mornings rather frosty, but the air, in general, soft and mild, on bad days being damp,
‘and hazy with small rain — Fahrenheit was at 47° at 8 this morning north aspect’ (I had forgotten I had dated yesterday
Fahrenheit was only 46° yesterday) — ‘I hope you have good accounts from Mrs. Sherard — my aunt joins me in best regards to yourself and Miss
‘Lynn — Sincerely anxious for her recovery, and for your own enjoyment of better health and happiness, I am, my dear Mrs. Lynn, very truly yours Anne
‘Lister’ — to Steph., after copying M-’s [Mariana] account of herself (burning heat in her stomach succeeded by sickness which
keeps her ‘awake for hours together’ in the night — tongue swelled and as if scalded — appetite good ‘in imagination’
but the moment she begins to eat, she is satisfied) add, ‘Steph! I need not say, that this account, preceded by none
‘any better, makes me uneasy; nor shall I be otherwise, till I have heard from you — I do not ask for a long letter —
‘it is quite unnecessary — you have better things to do — but you must really find time to tell me, I trust, that you and yours

[margin text:] very fine, rather frosty.
Fahrenheit 47° at 8 10/60 a.m.
5 1/2° —— 12 at noon
48° —— 10 5/60 p.m.
DateDec 1826
Extent1 page


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