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Catalogue Finding NumberSH:7/ML/E/10/0032
Office record is held atCalderdale, West Yorkshire Archive Service
TitleDiary page
Description[Diary Transcription]

I never liked her — now I have no confidence in her — the taking the ale staggered me at first, now what she said
of it staggers me still more — Told her I had not mentioned either this or Miss Reed’s letter to my aunt — Did my aunt know of
these 2 things I believe she could not endure the woman, for she, too, has never liked her — having written one end to IN- [Isabella Norcliffe]
hastily concluded on the other and sent of my letter to the great post at 12 1/2 to ‘Miss Norcliffe, to the care of Mr. Fisher,
Petergate, York, Angleterre’ — and then went to bedroom (expecting Madame Galvani every minute) to finish dressing — I have
been thus particular about MacDonald that when this subject comes on the tapis again (for it will one of these days
before we get rid of her) I have this journal to refer to — For the same reason I have copied all I wrote
to Tib about her not coming to see us here ~ Madame Galvani came at 12 3/4 just as I had done my hair — left
her till I had finished dressing — she staid till 2 3/4 — conversation as usual — told her I was so much occupied
I would rather she only came once a week till I had more leisure — after Madame Galvani went came to speak to my
aunt about something — mentioned having had a long conversation about MacDonald’s carelessness, but neither named Miss
Reed’s letter nor the beer — went out at 3 35/60 — to Michel’s — ate a mince-pie by way of tasting what
sort of things they were (very good) ordered 4 for Xmas [Christmas] day, and 2 three lb. very rich plum cakes, meaning to
send one of them to Madame Galvani — it dampened a little — returned home for my umbrella — then took 2 turns quite
round the gardens in 3/4 hour and came in at 4 3/4 — settled my accounts — George brought in the beef he bought this morning
to weigh it — to my surprise instead of 7 3/4 lbs. it was 2 oz. less than this — I will have everything I buy weighed — Dinner
at 6 5/60 — Left the dining room at 7 50/60 just before dinner wrote from line 12 to 33 of the last page, and just after
wrote from line 33 to here — In speaking to my aunt before going out mentioned getting rid of
MacDonald and taking Mrs Potter who is going to leave Mrs Barlow on trial ~ the mince pie very heavy on
my stomach just before dinner — at dinner took a little pepper — perhaps the weight of a grain or 2 which I think did me
good — writing to here, and the rough draft of the index, took me till 9 1/4 — from then till for 1/2 hour sat talking to my aunt —
then till 10 1/4 finished reading the whole of the yesterday’s supplement to Saturday’s paper — Mr. Brougham’s speech in support
of ministers sending troops to Portugal very good — very fine frosty morning and fine till after Madame Galvani went at 2 3/4 —
about 3 came in rather hazy and at 3 35/60 when I went out was just begun to damp or small rain a little which continued all
the time I was out, though not enough to wet my umbrella — came to my room at 10 1/4. o.. ~ wrote the last 4 lines —

Tuesday 19
6 3/4
11 3/4
my bowels right enough this morning — In my room at 7 35/60 — read the debates in the paper of yesterday — then till 9 3/4
looking over and assorting all the papers (Galignani’s messengers) from 1 September to this time — 3 wanting, of 5 September
and 2 and 3 November — then finished dressing — breakfast at 10 20/60 which took me 25 minutes — wrote a little note to Madame
Contant to thank her for the sequel to Montlosier’s memoire which she sent yesterday (by George) with the gown, to say I
was ‘très contente de la robe’ et [very content with the gown and] begged her to send the note back by George — then ruled a model sheet to give
to the papetier in the rue de la paix — determined, after all, not to save my 14/. in a case like this — the book
will have 160 leaves which, at the rate of 4 per annum, which [illegible] will last 40 years, a period
too long to throw away any comfort of arrangement for a small saving of money at present — counted over
what I got at the bank on Saturday — paid George rang for my breakfast things to be taken away at 11 1/2, and then paid George his
last 1/2 year’s wages due today (he has now lived with us 6 1/2 years) £7 at 25/. and the remaining 17 shillings and 6d
at par (24/.) — gave him my note to take to Madame Contant — then read the whole of today’s paper — and settled my accounts
all which took me till 12 55/60 — talked to my aunt a little — went out at 1 1/4 — ordered a weekly summary
book at No. [number] 11 rue de la paix, 160 leaves to be neatly 1/2 bound price 14/. then called at Mellerio’s to hasten
them to let us have the plate — then sauntered slowly along through the gardens to Quai Voltaire and got there at 2 1/4 — Mrs. Barlow had been
watching for me the last 2 hours — almost ill at my not arriving — on the point of coming to see if my aunt was ill —
The coast was clear Jane with her friend Adele Mrs Barlow had a fire in her bedroom and took me in there after

[margin text:] Fahrenheit 36 1/2° at 8 a.m.
38° — 1 p.m.
40° — 6 —
38° — 10 1/4 —

very fine frosty

sitting about an hour began to feel her a little she asked if I should like her to lie down on the bed she had
just got settled there and I got my right middle finger up when there was a ring at the bell she jumped up it was
a little French woman come to inquire the character of Potter Mrs Barlow not long before she was back leaving
the lady to have a tete a tete with Potter when we heard they were both gone Mrs Barlow went to bed again and I had my right
middle finger up for three excitements besides handling and feeling her a great deal she said I had more
strength with my hand than a man had rubbed her more and of course tired her more that she was not so soon ready
again as she would be if it was another thing said she had never known a man in his full strength she said
she had had Colonel Barlow five and seven times in a night bid her tell me when I teazed her and teach me to do
it just as she liked she said I was not too rough when passion came she could bear anything but I made her
feel a little more tired afterwards than a man would she calls Tuesday her day said it was on a Tues
day her birthday twenty eight December I first made her mine and I am to dine with her this birthday nex
t week on observing she never seemed to believe my having no connection with π [Mariana] for I had called her
Mary by mistake she said ‘you know best nobody could deceive better than you but if I believed it I
would not be to you what I am now’ I think that is uncertain for her passion is sstrong she is more and more
quietly wanton she asked if I did not want the pot then would feel in my drawers but I would not let her say
ing it excited me too much her curiosity is exceeding she asked me again today what I did that Mon
day I would not have Madame Galvani (when I called on the Newtes) had I been to an attorney to borrow money
I said no but she knew I liked fun and to teaze the fact was I had been to seek a particular sort of candle
luckily this ssatisfied she said Jane was reconciled to our being alone when she was ill and had fever
she had [illegible] thought of throwing herself from the terrace is she a little crackily inclined her
curiosity jealousy and passion are perhaps ssymtomatic ~ Just saw Jane for a minute or 2
came away at 5 40/60 and got home at 6 — washed my hands — read 3 or 4 of the prefatory ppages of Montlosier’s sequel to his
mémoire — Dinner at 6 20/60 — sat talking to my aunt from 8 to 9 20/60 — then wrote the last 28 lines which
took me till 9 55/60 — Fine day though a little damp in the air almost amounting to small rain when I went
out, and as I returned this evening — Fine night at 10 1/4 o.. ~ went to my room at 10 1/4 ~

Wednesday 20
7 5/60
11 35/60
In my room at 8 10/60 — my bowels getting wrong again —’tis extraordinary — what can it be that disagrees with and
makes them in this obstinate way? Is it that I do not I live too much à l’Anglais for the climate? I would willi
ngly do otherwise but how can I with my aunt I often think of her words once or twice before my uncle di
ed ‘I may live to tire you’ but providence orders all things wisely and for the best I am certainly not
so comfortable now as I fancy I could be I do not like MacDonald and she is of little use to me in fact
I have to dress and undress myself and often feel forlorn for want of someone George does his best and
we could not now perhaps do without him but he is not the sort of servant I should choose he
is too loutish though certainly improved of late ~ wrote the above of today which took me till 8 25/60
from then till 10 10/60 making out what I ought to buy today and what will be my probable expenses till February — I shall
want more French money than I have to make out the time ~ this buying plate was unlooked for just now
I am determined if I am to want comforts to save my money as much as I can that I may have more to spe
nd when I can spend it more to my mind ~ Breakfast at 10 10/60 read the whole of the paper — wrote the last 4 lines — finished
dressing all which and dawdling over one thing or other mending my glove — took me till 12 35/60 at which hour went out — En passant called at a little pot shop, and ditto tin shop in the rue
Saint Honoré — luckily did not buy anything but went to no. [number] 1 rue du Marché Saint Honoré where I bought the cut glass salt cellars —
she is assez brave femme [pretty brave woman] — bought (without bargaining) 4 little white china cups and saucers à 12 sols that the other woman (rue Saint
Honoré) asked 18sous for — a brown English shaped teapot 1/20 — a little cut glass for the pepper 9sous and the woman (Madame Duval) very
honestly gave me 2/50 for my large teapot (china) I gave 3/. for on Saturday — She sent to the tin shop tout près (No. 7)

[margin text:] Fahrenheit 38° at 8 1/4 a.m.
37 1/2° — 12 1/4 p.m.
37° — 6 —
36° — 10 10/60 —

fine frostyish morning
DateDec 1826
Extent1 page


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